mumy kata, "ah, keling memang macam tu"
haha.... keling??
tak baiklah mumy ni...
"dulu mumy ada partner india"
"sama-sama buat satu assignment ni"
"at first baik bukan main"
"dah nak hantar assignment, drama bukan main"
"masuk hospital lah, problems lah, macam-macam!"
"mumy tak kisah"
"i can do that assignment on my own"
"i dont rely on others"
"others yang rely on me"
"kak, biar lah orang use kita pun"
"as long as we dont rely on other people to stand up straight"
"biarkan dia rely on you"
"even though bila she doesnt need you, she just push you away"
"it doenst matter, you tak rugi anything"
"dia yang rugi coz tolak you away"
"pada hal dia tak sedar, without you, she's nothing"
"you know what, i am worse than you and dady"
mumy pelik, why pulak
"bcoz, i got your character and also dady's character"
"from you, i dont get along easily with others"
"from dady, akak tak suka blend in"
"i can blend in, but im not that good in that part"
"rasa janggal, its hard for me, bukan akak tak nak blend in"
"but i dont know how to blend in"
"that makes me worse than you and dady"
"dady boleh ngam dengan everyone, its just that he doenst like to blend in"
"mumy susah nak ngam dengan orang but then you can easily blend in with others"
"but i dont have both of it... that makes me much much more worse than you guys"
mumy diam aje...
two in one
Fazira and Yoheis in one time
ok, i had it enough
dah tak nak feel the pain anymore
ill just stay away from it
aku dah tak nak carik pasal
aku akan buat macam dengan Aqilah
macam mana aku gaduh dengan dia hari tu
dia tak nak tegur aku
fine, its ok... aku tau dia marah and tak puas hati dengan aku
tapi kalau aku pun sombong dengan dia,
that will make the frenship worse kan?
so, i decided to act normal
tegur dia macam biasa walaupun aku tau dia akan jeling aku tajam
what do i care? as long as aku still anggap dia my fren
lama-kelamaan, Aqilah rasa bersalah dengan aku
and now, we are good as before
aku akan buat bende yang sama dengan dia
i'll just pretend nothing happen between us
but if you ask me
"tak kisah saya 'macam tu' dulu?"
aku akan jujur...
kalau Fatini tanya, "akak tak tau bende sebenar lagi ke?"
"tau"
"akak tak kisah ke?"
"kisah"
aku tak kire lah nanti apa perasaan dia
why should i bother about other people's feeling
but they never bother my feelings and how much does it hurt
WHY SHOULD I BOTHER??
dulu, Kila dengan Jama
i managed to get along with Kila, but not with Jama...
dia tak nak accept aku... dia tak dapat terima even aku send a sorry card
then Nisa, worse ever...
betul aku sakit sangat-sangat
that was the first time aku betul-betul rasa sakit
maybe coz i trust her too much
lepas tu Ziah and HD
tapi tak teruk sangat, but still the're painful
then rapat dengan Fatini,
sampaikan aku rindu dia...
betul, aku memang rindukan dia..
aku teringat-ingat waktu dia rehat dengan aku
i wonder, why dia tak duduk dengan aku lagi
i miss that time... main suap-suap pulak
tapi... this is what i get
the Yoheis, tak lah serapat mana
but in class, she's the only one
ke mana saja aku dengan dia
kalau tak dengan dia, aku sorang je lah most of it
and we work together...
but this is what i get jugak...
aku tak dapat bayangkan lah!
all this time, dia bersandar kat aku
aku rasa aku seriously rapat dengan dia
sampai boleh letak kepala kat bahu dia
macam manja-manja couples pulak kan....
but at the end...
she just dumped me away
as though aku pulak sampah
tak nak tegur langsung
masa exam minta kertas OMR sengih-sengih buat muka hypocrite
aku cebik dalam hati je
cuba kalau aku tak kasi
asal mintak dengan aku?
bukan ke dia da tak rely on me dah?
kan dia dah ada Marthini dia since form 3...
best fren konon....
dulu rehat berdua dengan dia, tapi dia selalu elak dari aku
coz dia dah ada Marthini and pakwe die
masa form 4, aku sebolehnya tak nak rehat dengan budak B
then aku rehat dengan dia
macam BANGANG tau tak!
ah, tak nak lah aku dengan kawan-kawan India die tu
dah lah India ni bila bercakap macam seminit dua lagi dia nak bisu dah!
kecoh ya Rabbi
pening aku dowh.... haha...
no offense!!
but anyhow pun...
its okay lah...
i'll just go woth the flow
and ikut rentak 'dorang'
masa layar cemerlang,
aku tak rehat kat foyer,
coz... ada lah...
then, aku ikut lah Dayah, Aten,Nad
em.. macam pelik tau tak... huhu
tak biasa lah.... janggal...
aku ni dah lah jenis yang tak suka jalan lembab-lembab
unless kalau aku bad mood or sakit
kalau tak jalan biasa or jalan laju
bila jalan dengan dorang,
aku rasa, eh nak pegi mana ni?
kejap sini, kejap sana
aku pulak tak boleh kalau tak stick dengan dia orang
coz nanti tak tau kelas...
dah la datang lambat, malas tengok kumpulan program tuh... hurm...
so, ikut aje la...
ala... untuk this cuti aje...
nanti back to normal lah...
tapi dorang buat aku lupa sekejap
ok lah tu, tak de lah rasa down aje keje...
sometimes we have to spend time to feel down...
perasaan itu perlu...! : p
ok? kan?
dah lah.. tak kisah lah korang nak buat apa dengan aku
nak perbodohkan aku ke
nak gunakan aku ke
janji jangan jampi aku sudah.. hehe : p
aku tak nak tension-tension
aku nak hepi je...
tak nak masam muka! except kalau tengah layan perasaan lah...
so, if you think you have win the battle
tak pa lah... ok, you win
untuk koranglah... tapi in real life
you are the BIGGEST LOSER
yeay! im the biggest winner lah maksudnye kan?
hahaha... : p
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