Assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatuh... :)
Alhamdulillah my doa's have been answered. I finally have friends who is 'crazy' + always reminds me of Allah SWT. It is such a sweet and blissful blessing to have friends like them. I'm gonna love them so much. I haven't had a true friend for the rest of my life before I entered UPSI. Yes, there is a reason behind everything that has happened. I'm quite sad I didn't get UiTM. 1. because of the branding. 2. I'm used to the surroundings even though transportations are killing me! 3. food is cheap 4. because I used to be a student of UiTM, seems that I have fallen in love with UiTM. Until now, I haven't unlike our VC, Dato Prof Dr. Sahol and all the status that I don't know hahaha... Too many Dato and Prof and what not. But now, even though the food here is quite expensive, theres no complete facilities here cause its a new campus, I still am feeling blessed. Because of my friends. They made me stronger every single day.
I thought my roommates and orientation friends was the best. They are the best, but my Tesl friends are better. I'm glad I met them. :) Such sweet memories. Gonna love you girls so damn much. Muahhhh. :P
Here's one thing that I want to share. One of my friends wears veil (purdah). When she asked me about veils, one time she did mentioned it don't remember what was the exact conversation, but I was shocked to know that she wears veils. I don't know what am I suppose to feel. Because at that time and before that time, my view about veils are: it's just covering our face, it's hard to talk with people because our voice are trapped, it's hard to read your expressions, and so many other stuffs! I'm not saying I'm objecting veils... but I just don't agree with wearing veils. But she asked, can we wear veils... I remembered that one time, I saw a girl with entirely black clothing who wore veils and I told her about it. "I have seen someone who is wearing a veil during the talk in Dewan Besar UPSI (during my orientation week). I think it shouldn't be a problem."
I never said to her that she couldn't wear it. Even if I don't know whether she can wear it or not, I'll jut say yes, you can. I support her wearing veils. Bit by bit I learned that, wearing veils doesn't affect your conversation that much. It also doesn't affect other things too. Like what I've been thinking all this while. But of course for a beginner it would be quite hard, how to eat with your veils on, and etc. Looking at her, I feel like I wanna wear veils too. :P Looking at her, I feel that I wanna change more. Being like this is not enough for me. I need to cover myself even more. But I didn't say that it is an easy task. It is hard, searching for time to spend a day or half a day to go to the town to shop for our hijab. Until now, I still haven't got the chance yet. I don't want to wear bawal hijab which are transparent anymore even though I am wearing inner neck. It still doesn't look right. It is not enough.
I want to lengthen my hijab, slowly. Now, slowly, I am not gonna wear T-shirts anymore, no. I'm gonna wear something very long and covers everything. That's why I prefer to wear baju kurung, it is a lot easier. There's no need for me to feel reluctant of my clothing whether it is long enough, whether it covers me or not and etc.
Alhamdulillah, that is what true friends are about, who reminds us of Allah SWT and makes us a better khalifah. Insya-Allah, pray for me, cause it's not easy to change what we are used to! I am willing to get out f my comfort zone to be a better person for Allah's sake. Hope it will last forever. Amin.
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